feelen betta!

Ok, Now I'm feelen bit betta after what u said Cara. I will just let it flow and try and go with the mood like u said. Not too much tong or slobber. But a little more advice wouldn't have gone astray. Thanks heaps for the advice though. I suppose I'm gana have 2 figure it out 4 myself.Well, last night I was talking 2 one of my guy friends on msn (Jamie), who by the way is my ex-crush. U know, the guy I had a crush on 4 like the past 2 years. Anyways, totally over him by the way! Hes great, but just not 4 me. Mark is the one 4 me. Anyway, talking 2 Jamie and he said not 2 tell Mark that I'm not that experienced.He said to just let it happen naturally and I will get the hang of it. He also said when he first went 2 kiss his girlfriend she turned her cheek as well. So I'm not feelen like such a nob anymore. Anyway, Mark and I r spending New Years eve 2gether. He told his work he needed the night off, and I am so excited bout New Years. Not sure what we gana do yet, but I already brought myself a whole entire outfit. I spent $200 on a dress, shoes, bag, and like this over-dress thing made of lace. Looks really pretty. Can't wait 2 wear it. I can't really afford 2 b blowing money wit uni starting back soon, but I thought it was worth it. I am just so over the moon. He makes me so happy. And another huge thing that I'm not sure if I have mentioned is that I git into UQ to do a degree in secondary education. The degree goes 4 18months (as it is a graduate program and also runs through summer semester). So in 18months I am going 2 b a fully qualified Film and Television and English High School Teacher. Only thing is that I start uni on the 21st of january. All I have 2 do is tuff it out 4 18months! Well that's what I keep telling myself. Well, 4 the first time in my life things seem 2 b going my way. I hope it lasts. Anyways, love u all and miss u heaps. Have 2 c u all some day. At least we have lj 2 kinda keep in contact. talk later:-)

And by the way.............................

Oh yeah, by the way, if I'm having problems with kissing him, how in the hell am I going to go with making out? Isn't there a place u can go to where they teach you how to kiss? What am I going to do? There is only so long he is going to wait to full on kiss me. Surely I could tell him the truth? Oh..... I am so sad. 20 years old and worried I don't know how to kiss. Crap! Well, I hope u all have a good laugh at me. I am so imbarrased. Well, will let u know how things progress. All I have to do is get the hang of kissing! Then it will be great!

Happy Little Vegemite! or not?

Ok, so as u probably already know I have a boyfriend now (who is fantastic by the way). But the thing is we have been out 5 times now and I have not properly kissed him yet. Well we did, but heres how it went: Mark had the flew the first 2 weeks we were seeing each other, so we didn't kiss, then when he finally got rid of the flew and we went to dinner tuesday night, we went up to mount Tamborine after dinner to look down at the lights and up at the stars, from the top of the mountain. Now it was all dark and the stars were out (some clouds). He was holding me in his arms and we were close. I was waiting for him to kiss me and I think he knew I was a little apprehensive (only because I have never kissed anyone on the lips before). I was worried I would stuff it up and kiss really mong. Well, anyway, he came close to my face and I really wanted to kiss him, but I kinda turned my cheek. Then he kissed me on the cheek. We stayed there in each others arms and then again, he leaned close. We pecked on the lips then I turned again. He said it's ok, I don't want to rush you into anything. I said, "no, I just don't want to be bad at anything". Then we kept on hugging and being in each others arms, and then I kinda put my face closer to his and we kinda kissed like 5 times, but I don't really know if it was propper kissing. It was like kissing someone on the cheek, only we were kissing/pecking a few times on the lips. Then I turned my cheek again. So I am so confused cos, it felt like I was mong at kissing. His lips felt nice and it felt like he was doing a good job, but I was so mong. And I don't really know if I was doing it right. This is so bad that at 20, I don't know how to kiss, but I have no idea what I'm doing. Even with all the advice Sabrina has been giving me, I still feel mong. The real question is, do I tell him the truth, that the reason I'm not kissing is not cos I don't want to (because I really really wanna kiss him heaps, all the time), but because I'm not sure how to or if I'm doing it right? Should I tell him? I feel so bad! I think I'm in love with him already, but I can't even kiss him cos I'm scared I'll do it wrong. It really felt like I kissed him mong. I don't know, help! I am so happy because he is so wonderful, charming, cute, smart and funny, and everything I want in a guy, but I'm really sad about me not being able to kiss him properly. It's not cos I'm friget, but more cos I'm scared he will think I'm crap and can't kiss. Help me please!

Stop the Press!

I have the news of the century! I have been going out with this really great guy named Mark and he kinda asked me to be his girlfriend. I am so happy, because he makes me feel happy. He is so wonderful to me. I actualy have to get off the computer now, but will make a long post later on, telling u everything. All I can say is that I am simply extatic. I really really like him so much, and the best part is I think he likes me too! gotta fly...............

Fucken Assignments!

Well as usual I've left my frigen assignments til last. Just handed one in that's due in tomorrow and have one more to start now and that ones due tomorrow. Good bloudy lick to me. Well, I suppose I'll just bullshit it! Oh, Tamara, thanks heaps 4 giving me the number for that lady. After all that, I couldn't get hold of her, but my teacher said I only need one interview and I got one of some guy. Ta heaps though darl! Well I am really going 2 get serious bout this livejournal updating. Nearly finished uni and my degree! Hip Hip Hurray! I am however applying to do a Bachelor of Education Secondary. It only goes for 2 years, so I'll have two degrees in 5 years. Not bad I suppose. Fingers crossed I get in. I am having some serious doubts about being accepted. If I don't get in I am seriously screwed beyond belief.Heres to hoping my luck holds out. And PLEASE nobody tell me it will be fine and I will get in cos u may jinx me. Not that I'm seriously supersticious, but I am so panicking right now. Fingers crossed xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxAnd I'm gana change da subject right now! Like my asshole sister who I seriously wanna punch in da face right now. Did I mention she was a big mouthed nob head who has no brain and has no life, so she annoys da fuck out of me! I am so pissed that I'm related to dat shit! Arrrgh!Change da sub again. So Tamara, Happy now? I heard bout your little post bout bugging me to update! No, seriously, I know I am probably like the worst livejournal member ever. I will make an attempt ta update more often. Gotta let my friends know i'm alive I suppose. Gotta go, my sister is fucking pissing me off. Gotta do my assignment now! lol

OK- To your request Cara!

Just a quick update! I'm alive! I'm pissed I can't make it to HP thing but I have to frigen work tomorrow (Thursday). Tell me when it's on so i can watch! Sabrina might go though. Rigadoon business is booming! Have photos! Will try and work out how to work my frigen scanner so I can post them up. Well i'm buggered. Early start tomorrow! Catch ya round lika rissole (joke to Cara).Will lj soon and oh...... I now msn! Shock! I'm moving on up in the world! Gotta cruise!

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Happy Deathday!Your name:gryffindorchickYou will die on:Thursday, September 10, 2015You will die of:Shark Attack Username: Created by Quill

Winge, winge, winge!

Well I'm back for another frigen winge!My crusty work go from one extreme to another. They give me too many frigen hours and then now they give me bugger all. I'm damn pissed off! Meanwhile, I need the frigen money to keep my rigadoon collection growing. I'm so jealous that I couldn't go to Borders for Order of the Pheonix release. Sabrina showed me photos and it looked a ball. Wish I had of come. I went to Sabrinas HP party today. Which was fantastic. Of coarse I had to come frigen late cos I had to work til 12pm, but it was still great. She put heaps of effort into making the party as Harry Potter as possible. A really lovely party. Well done Sabrina (if you read this). And thanks for the invite. I had a lovely time. Everything was so authentic, like the gold coins and choc frogs. Just Brilliant!And I saw the Hulk last night. I thought it was gana be shithouse, but I ended up loving it. It is actualy quite funny. He is a real laugh. Well I give it 10/10 anyways.And I got two huge Harry Potter Poster things from Big W. One is a huge cardboard poster thing of Ron and the other is of Harry. Which I have Harry hanging on my door and Ron leaning against my wall. I love HP. How can anyone ever have such an imagination. Great applause to JK for bringing such joy in our lives><><><><><(that's me aplauding). And Nobody mention anything about Order of the Pheonix until I have finished reading it. I'm trying to savour it and take my time reading it so nobody mock me. I have only read about 250pages and from what Iv'e read, I love it. But I'm biased.Well i have the crappy flu so I'm going to go put my pj's on and sit on the couch to watch a bit of telly. catch ya later:-)

Hello Hello!

Hello! So excited bout Current Affair thingy on tuesday. I'm sooooo there guys (incase you check my lj). Yes AND my damn bad luck did indeed riun my plans i had mantioned last entry. I don't care either! Well that's just me being spoilt and pissed off. Ok everyone probably thinks I'm totaly nuts now and doesn't know what the hell I'm talking about, but it's just code for those I know. Well I will post later in the week to come. lol, Suzie:-)

chunkylover53@aol.com

Ok we all know I'm nuts. And a huge ass slacker. Yes, Yes! But I'm so pissed off because every time I go and write a huge big frigen deep and meaningful entry, something stupig comes along and stuffs my frigen entries up. But I'm back and hopefully more regularly. I just went on about some good stuff in the entry I wrote before and when i went to post the damn thing i forgot my frigen pass word and lost the whole entry. Pissed off!And I think that chunkylover53@aol.com is histerical. It was what Homer said his email ,address was on the Simpsons. I told my mum that i want to get that email address and she said that I wasn't allowed. Well as for my big and meaningful conversation. I hat repeating myself but I will. I was just going on about how crap it is that guys don't make the first move anymore. Much to my dismay. What's with guys now a days waiting for the girls to make the first frigen move? Stupid frigen womens rights! I mean i'm all for equl opportunity and stuff, but that sort of stuff shouldn't apply tp dating. The guys now a days are just too pussy to make the first move and it shits me off. So I am destined to make the first move on my beloved. Oh my beloved (whom I will name my beloved for confidentiality purposes). He is the most fantastic, sweet and handsome man on the earth, however he must be a little thick. How can he not tell that I am madly and deeply in love with him? Don't get me wrong, he is like way smart, but perhaps not about this. Or maybe it's me? I'm so frigen chicken to say anything or make the first move. But why should I? It's up to the macho man to say "oh... I'm madly and deeply in love with you.... So will you take my hand and ride away with me on my white stallion to a far away land where we shall marry and live happily ever after in my castle...." Oh I frigen wish!And back to reality, notice I am using "frigen" instead of the word I'm really thinking in my head (F*ck*ng). Ok well I'll lj later. lol, Suzie:-)

I'm so happy (for once)

Well I am so happy (for once).My rigadoon collection is starting to grow and that is such a good thing, plus we are doing this video clip for uni (exciting stuff).And I finaly got the nerve to put in for my holidays at work. I had been putting it off cos I was scared my manager would go psycho, but I did it anyway. Hurray for me!Well thanks to Cara (once again) I know have an awesome live journal which I will make more effort to write in. It's just that every time I type up this big long entry for my live journal, some tossa rings my house and cuts my connection to the internet, then I loose my entry. That really pisses me off so I will eventualy get a seperate line. Oh well today I am going to make a chocolate pavlova so I can not be here too long. Mean while I have got to clean my room. I am so slack because I have a hundred things to do but I end up wasting hours away in front of the computer, just procrastinating. Ah.. such is life!Well I just wanted to tell anyone who is reading this that there is a new live journal friend named Sabrina at theravenclaw. Hope you guys can guess that she is a HP fan too, and a member of the HP Brisbane fan club. How cool is Harry Potter? Pretty Fu#ken cool! And I am soooooo excited bout the release of the movie Friday. Can not wait! Well I'm ganna jet, see ya!

I am a real slacker!

It has been ages since I have written. I know I am so crap. Whats the point of having a journal if you don't write in the bloudy thing! Well I actualy can't waist too much time on here now cos I have to type up the good copy of my assignment that is due tomorrow. So I won't be too long. Meanwhile I am sooooo excited that my rigadoon doll collection is building up. Incase anyone doesn't know they are this really big rag dolls from the 80s that have holes in the back of there heads so they can be used as puppets and you can make there mouths move. Well I just love them!Anyway, back to reality. I am soooo also excited about getting new puppies this friday. I don't know what to call them though. They are boy and girl and I really want to call them a couple name like Fred and Ginger. But I can't think of anything really cool. Well I suppose it will come.Anyway I am soooo not looking forward to crappy work tomorrow. My department manager is the biggest asshole. She thinks I am a robot and I have a hundred hands or something. She doesn't care because she leaves everything for me to do and doesn't care if there is no way in hell I will be able to do it in the time I have. Asshole! I hope she is a pack mule in her next life so she has to lug heavy stuff on her back her whole life and by bullied around (like she does to me). Honestly, I like my job. It's just her, she makes me hate it (and her). One day.... One day I might tell her what I think! Well I really better start finishing my assignment. Ah... Such is the life of the struggling student working 30hours a week to support herself and her studies, until she can fulfill her life long dream to be a successful film director/film teacher! How damn melodramatic! I tell ya... sometimes I just crack myself up. I told ya I'm a real nut!

I'm so sorry!

I'm sorry I've taken so long to write in here, but now that dienacht has made my LJ all fancy and PINK I'm motivated to write in here more often! Like my new icon? Thanks to Chamber of Icons, which I highly recommend!May I say I hate Brian and I hope one of those lights falls on his ugly old head an kills him!

I'm so slack!

Ok Ok Ok! I know I'm really slack! It has been ages since I have written. And by the way, I'm so damn mong that I can't ever seem to spell something when I write. So If there are any spelling errors, stiff shit, cos I'm mong at spelling. Well on a more pleasant note, the HP premiere at movieworld was fantabulous and I will remember it for the rest of my life. And I now have a huge crush on Jason Isaacs (think that's how ya spell it). Even though he is a nasty Luscious Malfoy in HP, I love him! He semed so wonderful at the HP screening at Movieworld, even though I didn't actualy speak to him, and he only spoke to the crowd for a brief moment. Damn Cara and Amanda (just kidding), thay got to meet him and get photos and all. So jealous (but not in a vengful bad way)..... ha ha ha! Or am I? Just making some unfunny jokes, no need to take me seriously, the last thing I would ever be is serious! No I would have to say I am happy for em.Well I am also mesmerised by Snape in a wierd kinda way. He almost has that sexy nasty guy kinda appeal. I must say, I really hated Snape, until my cousin pointed out to me that he was the guy in sense and sensability and I think he was rather cute for an older guy. I am so damn wierd, but I think Snape's not bad. To keep in tune with ranting ang raving about the worlds best ever film (HP and the Chamber of Secrets of coarse), wasn't Dobby the cutest thing. Granted, a little ugly, but so cute! I just wanted to jump on screen and hug him. With those big bulgy eyes and skinny chicken arms, who couldn't resist poor little Dobby (even though he almost killed Harry several times)? And what's with damn Oprah Winfrey? If ya watched that HP Oprah special the other day, you may know what I mean. For starters, who the hell is Dubby? She kept calling Dobby, Dubby. How crap, didn't she watch the movie or did she not have her hearing aid on? It's Dobby Oprah, not Dubby! Well, and don't even get me started on how she hosted the show! She didn't even let the poor kids get a word in edge way! We wanna hear what Daniel, Emma and Rupert have to say, not Oprah gasbaging the whole time, Or what those little kids had to say about the film. Who cares, we wanted to hear the cast! Well enough of my winging bout that...... For more of my winging about something else, see below!And my frigen car! I had the blasted (notice I'm not swearing) thing repaired for a steering problem, they charge me $500 and not even two days after I picked it up from that mungrel mechanics, the problems back, worse than ever. Well I am not even going to go any further on this issue or I'll give myself a pre-mature heart attack!On an even brighter note, I'm going to my little cousins graduation tonight. Little fellas graduating from year seven. Oh they grow up so quickly! And by the sounds of it, I have too, considering I sound like a winging old woman. How bout this weather? So frigen hot I say.... Lucky I have airconditioning... shame my 27 year old car doesn't! Well I'm lost for words... Don't know what to talk about next! Dust my ears decieve me? Suzie, speechless! um....um... yeah... I got my photos back from the HP premiere at Movieworld. Can't wait to show my uni buds. Not that there that good, stupid bloudy flash is too bright and I got red eye! Such is life... at least I have some OK photos.Yeah, that's right although I'm ganna go to see my cousin graduate tonight, I'm ganna miss the 2 hour episode of Smallvill tonight and Ally! Crap, Crap, Crap! Well I can't very well miss out on my cousins big day, I will have to deal with it! Oh and did I mention that I love Harry Potter!Well I gotta bounce, later!

I'm so slack!

Ok Ok Ok! I know I'm really slack! It has been ages since I have written. And by the way, I'm so damn mong that I can't ever seem to spell something when I write. So If there are any spelling errors, stiff shit, cos I'm mong at spelling. Well on a more pleasant note, the HP premiere at movieworld was fantabulous and I will remember it for the rest of my life. And I now have a huge crush on Jason Isaacs (think that's how ya spell it). Even though he is a nasty Luscious Malfoy in HP, I love him! He semed so wonderful at the HP screening at Movieworld, even though I didn't actualy speak to him, and he only spoke to the crowd for a brief moment. Damn Cara and Amanda (just kidding), thay got to meet him and get photos and all. So jealous (but not in a vengful bad way)..... ha ha ha! Or am I? Just making some unfunny jokes, no need to take me seriously, the last thing I would ever be is serious! No I would have to say I am happy for em.Well I am also mesmerised by Snape in a wierd kinda way. He almost has that sexy nasty guy kinda appeal. I must say, I really hated Snape, until my cousin pointed out to me that he was the guy in sense and sensability and I think he was rather cute for an older guy. I am so damn wierd, but I think Snape's not bad. To keep in tune with ranting ang raving about the worlds best ever film (HP and the Chamber of Secrets of coarse), wasn't Dobby the cutest thing. Granted, a little ugly, but so cute! I just wanted to jump on screen and hug him. With those big bulgy eyes and skinny chicken arms, who couldn't resist poor little Dobby (even though he almost killed Harry several times)? And what's with damn Oprah Winfrey? If ya watched that HP Oprah special the other day, you may know what I mean. For starters, who the hell is Dubby? She kept calling Dobby, Dubby. How crap, didn't she watch the movie or did she not have her hearing aid on? It's Dobby Oprah, not Dubby! Well, and don't even get me started on how she hosted the show! She didn't even let the poor kids get a word in edge way! We wanna hear what Daniel, Emma and Rupert have to say, not Oprah gasbaging the whole time, Or what those little kids had to say about the film. Who cares, we wanted to hear the cast! Well enough of my winging bout that...... For more of my winging about something else, see below!And my frigen car! I had the blasted (notice I'm not swearing) thing repaired for a steering problem, they charge me $500 and not even two days after I picked it up from that mungrel mechanics, the problems back, worse than ever. Well I am not even going to go any further on this issue or I'll give myself a pre-mature heart attack!On an even brighter note, I'm going to my little cousins graduation tonight. Little fellas graduating from year seven. Oh they grow up so quickly! And by the sounds of it, I have too, considering I sound like a winging old woman. How bout this weather? So frigen hot I say.... Lucky I have airconditioning... shame my 27 year old car doesn't! Well I'm lost for words... Don't know what to talk about next! Dust my ears decieve me? Suzie, speechless! um....um... yeah... I got my photos back from the HP premiere at Movieworld. Can't wait to show my uni buds. Not that there that good, stupid bloudy flash is too bright and I got red eye! Such is life... at least I have some OK photos.Yeah, that's right although I'm ganna go to see my cousin graduate tonight, I'm ganna miss the 2 hour episode of Smallvill tonight and Ally! Crap, Crap, Crap! Well I can't very well miss out on my cousins big day, I will have to deal with it! Oh and did I mention that I love Harry Potter!Well I gotta bounce, later!